Days before leaving for Cape Town, Nikki Tamboli faced a major setback on the personal front. The Bigg Boss 14 finalist lost her elder brother, Jatin Tamboli, to COVID-19. With a heavy heart, Nikki chose to continue with Khatron Ke Khiladi 11 and dedicated the show to her brother. After a month, Nikki is yet to come to terms with the loss.
Talking to a leading daily, Nikki, who is currently in Cape Town, told that she is yet to cope up with her brother's untimely demise. The actress added that she hasn't even spoken to her parents and hasn't been able to share her grief with anyone. "To be honest, I haven't. Mujhe koi mila nahi hai jiske saath mai baith ke, baat kar sakun. I haven't even spoken to my mom-dad. I am still in Cape Town, I cannot talk to them," Nikki told.
Nikki added, "I cannot talk to them about what happened to my brother. I know if I become weak in front of them, if I cry in front of them, I do not know what they will feel. I am just trying to accept what happened. I am just letting it go and moving ahead."
A few days after the tragedy, Nikki penned a note for Jatin on Instagram. However, she chose to delete the post after some time. In the now-deleted post, Nikki wrote, "I miss my brother so much and I am sobbing myself to sleep almost every night. Few people whom I know tell me that it was his time to go and I should be glad that he's not in emotional pain anymore and not sick anymore and that I have to let him go but my mind doesn't want to accept that."
She added, "I just want to be able to talk to my brother and when I say this to my friends they say me that I still can, but it's not the same.....The y are just not understanding or listening to how I am feeling. I knew my brother my whole life, we were very close and we always protected each other from the other family members and I had to look after him for most of his life even when I wasn't around. I kind of felt like my brother's sister and mum. My mum and father just keep saying that I am strong one in the family and she could have never gone through my and she expects me to be ok now and feeling strong now. I don't feel strong at all now. I feel like everything is too hard and I just feel each day is difficult to live. I haven't expected my brother's death."
(Source: Hindustan Times)