Filmmaker Anup Singh, who worked with the late Irrfan Khan on films like Qissa and The Song of Scorpions has written a book about his bond with the actor. Titled Irrfan: Dialogues with the Wind, the book is all set to be released on February 14. Now an excerpt published on Scroll.in has gone public in which Anup has written about paying Irrfan a visit to the hospital, and observed how the actor was facing the inevitable with strength and fortitude.
He recalled how Irrfan was smiling moments before asking Anup to ring for the nurse. He needed a shot of morphine to dull the pain, and couldn’t move his body. Anup remembered turning away from the actor’s ‘stick-thin arm’. They discussed future films, including one on the life and times of Bulle Shah, and another about a celebrated Bollywood composer’s rivalry with a younger counterpart. Singh also wanted Irrfan to play Mahabharat’s Duryodhana for him, in a film about Duryodhana’s last days.
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“In a month or so, I’m going to London again. For some more tests,” Anup remembered Irrfan saying. He seemed to have accepted what lay ahead for him, and said, “I do think, you know: where will I die? Here? In London? And, other than pain, who’ll be there? Will I pass while asleep? Pass? What a strange word. Pass to where?” Later, he added, “Lying here, I try to look at my thoughts as they come and go. I do not feel I’m dying. The pain’s always there. There’s resentment. Anger. Doctor, nurse, medicine, trips to the toilet. But I do not feel I’m dying.” The actor admitted that sometimes, he’s scared. “Not always, but sometimes. Angry also. Bitter. Furious. Sad. Sadness is the worst. What could be. What could have been…”
Irrfan left a deep void in the hearts of his fans, family members and friends as he left the world in April 2020. Irrfan passed away on April 29, 2020, in Mumbai after a two-year-long battle with neuroendocrine tumour. He was also diagnosed with colon infection.
(Source: Scroll.in)
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