Jay-Z is in confessional mode. He has been speaking out about how he had built up walls due to issues from his childhood, which led to him shutting down and infidelity. “The hardest thing is seeing pain on someone's face that you caused, and then have to deal with yourself. So, you know, most people don't want to do that. You don't want to look inside yourself,” he revealed, adding, “You have to survive, so you go into survival mode, and when you go into survival mode, what happens? You shut down all emotions. So, even with women, you gonna shut down emotionally, so you can't connect. In my case, like, it's deep. And then all the things happen from there: infidelity.”

While hinting that he and wife Beyonce could have got divorced, he got therapy instead, which helped him deal with his past experiences. “You know, most people walk away, and, like, divorce rate is like 50% or something ’cause most people can't see themselves.”
Rumours of infidelity had struck the couple’s picture-perfect marriage in 2013 when rumours emerged of the rapper cheating on Beyonce. The rumours were practically confirmed the following year after video coverage of an elevator fight between him and sister-in-law Solange Knowles had leaked. The video showed the physical spat in the usually private confines of an elevator, as Solange emotionally confronted Jay-Z after the Met Gala as her sister stood by silently.

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Two years later, Beyoncé herself used her album “Lemonade” to make the same claims, as she openly accused her husband of lying and cheating. Queen Bey sang, “He only want me when I'm not there/ He better call Becky with the good hair.”

Jay-Z returned in repentant mode, eager to let the world know he was wrong for the way he treated Beyoncé and her family. His album, “4:44,” featured a full apology to his superstar wife in its title track… “Look, I apologize, often womanize. Took for my child to be born, see through a woman's eyes,” he rapped. Via the track “Kill Jay Z,” he also apologized to sister-in-law Solange, as he addressed his conflict with her.

"We were using our art almost like a therapy session,” he says, now that storm has been weathered.